Stuff

I feel | calm

Last week I saw „Requiem“; a very difficult film, at least for me.
When it comes to things like exorcisms and all that overly catholic stuff I just want to scream. It makes me angry and sad and I don’t know what else.
That almost perverse joy of that priest that he finally found someone where he could try that stuff.
The helplessness of friends and family. Well, of the father; the mother was a bitch from the very beginning.
The submissiveness of that girl.
Well, like I said, it was rather difficult for me. A good film, but not one you can enjoy.

This weekend we went to see my grandmother; the one who’s living a little more far away. We planned that for the last weekend, but they said there would be new snow, so we stayed home.
And went this Friday. My, my grandmother (the other one!) is really a ***. Absolutely incredible. The whole week she was... bitchy and on Friday she went to my mother and said: „Look at me... do you think I’m getting ill?“
Well, yes. Look at you. We’re here all the ***ing time and when we want to visit my grandmother for a weekend once every three months she acts as if we’re deserting her.
And my father just takes it. He even said we would go on Saturday, just to keep her happy.
Man, I’m so sick if this.

It seems winter has decided it’s time to leave. It was sunny and warm today, and the snow is melting fast.
I went for a walk today. The sun, the water on the streets and the rest of the snow were so bright I could hardly see anything. The lake’s still frozen (I even saw someone walking on the ice) and all the ducks were sitting on the bank and dozing – rather cute.
I love the willows there. Some of them are covered with yellowish lichen and looked absolutely beautiful against the clear blue sky. As much as I love the winter (I’m not too fond of spring, if I’m entirely honest) – and loved this winter in particular, it’s also wonderful to have some sun again. ^_^